Sunday, December 11, 2005__________
current mood » my back hurts so much
current spin » Tamia - Who Do You Tell?


I was texting with someone when I was on my way to my dad's office last Monday. Grabe, kilig. *smiles*


I can only hold on to something this much.
(New Edition's I'm Still In Love With You is playing on my mind)


Should I still pursue film and photography after I graduate with a degree in psychology? I'm confused. A part of me wants to stay here so bad. But the other half of me wants to pack my stuff and do NYC already!


I was staring at Tuesday last night. How I wish I was a kid all over again. I would stress more about legos and simple math homeworks etc than stress about thesis, college life, and all the whatnot. Err....


I've got over 2,200+ songs in my iPod now! Yayness! Much love to Kevin for the songs!


Justin and I aren't in good terms. And no, I'm not talking about Justin, the bestfriend. I'm talking about Justin, my friend in Cali. Basta, it's a long story. There are people who are so steady. Hay.


I lost my Roxy wallet with 6 grand in it. I want a new one. The same one.


I wasn't able to buy the dog tag from Tiffany because it wasn't there anymore when we went back. To think that I had it reserved! Ah sus! But I still got a necklace anyway. So I guess it's all good.


14 mores days to go until Christmas. I can't wait until Christmas is over. Really. While most people are counting the days til Christmas day out of excitement, I'm counting off the days because I just want to get it done and over it. Yes, it only happens once a year. But so does New Year, Valentine's day, Mother's day, Father's day, birthdays, and all the holidays that I could think of. More than half of the population of the world forget what Christmas is all about. They're excited because of the parties and gifts. Even I am guilty of that. But I have a diffrent reason for this Christmas. Planning all the parties, dinners, and shopping list is really tiring.. uber tiring. That's why I can't wait til it's over.


I can't wait to go to NYC!


Minsan gusto ko na talga lumayas dito sa amin. Pero wala naman akong pupuntahan.


I just ran out of things to say.

posted at 11:00 pm
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Monday, November 28, 2005__________
current mood » tired
current spin » Jennifer Love Hewitt - Love Will Show You Everything


I know it's really late but I just gotta post an entry. It's been a while.


Finally, the wedding is over! After one year of extensive preparation for my brother's wedding, it is finally over. Every moment was worth it. It was a nice wedding. Even I liked loved it. And you know me. It takes a whole lot of effort and then some for me to appreciate weddings. I wonder if the ex from hell was jealous to death. Hmm.. Check out the pictures at Multiply!


It feels different pala when you see your brother waiting for his bride to walk down the aisle til they finally say "I do." I've attended several weddings before and none of them bothered me until I attended my brother's wedding. It affected me in a way that I can't really explain nor fathom. I don't even know if it was an enlightment in disguise or what. I appreciate my brother more now. I'm somewhat welcoming the fact that maybe, just maybe, I will get married someday. Though I'm still cynical about marriage. But yeh. I'm not in the position to talk about this kind of thing so I'll shut up now. Hehe.


Hong Kong was great. Though I didn't get to shop as what I thought I would. I came back home almost empty handed. But hey, I've got a new laptop! So, cheers to that! Everything in Hong Kong is expensive.. well almost. It's way cheaper here, believe me. And for some odd reasons, I wasn't that excited to go anywhere. Maybe it's because of the fact that we used to live there. And we didn't go to the places I wanted to go to. There wasn't much time left. Plus, Tuesday and Ice were with us. Kiddos. But still. Argh. I can't believe I wasn't able to go to Lan Kwai Fong this time! No drinks for me, me dear.. only Ching Tao from Hak Ka Hut! Haha!


I'll post the pics in multiply soon. =D


Believe it or not, I don't like Mango (the clothing line). I could actually say that I hate that store even though I'm guilty of owning several items from there. It's not like I bought those myself. But anyway.. getting back. Aunt Feliz told me that her daughter told her that Mango is like a no-no brand in Hong Kong. Not a lot of people like that store. It's not that good and the price is like whatever, if you know what I mean. Plus, it's not on the top 10 best shops in Hong Kong. But I could care less about the latter. I'm just happy when I heard that a lot of people don't like that store. I'm not alone. What a relief!


When we were on our way back to the Hotel from Disneyland, I remembered that I had the chance to study in Hong Kong but I didn't. I don't remember why I decided not to. But now, I'm kinda regretting not grabbing that opportunity to study there. Then maybe I could also fake a British accent like Sab can. Hehe. Sayang noh. Plus, that would be another school added to the 5 schools I went to. Hehe.


Disneyland is aight. But I fell asleep for two hours or so because I didn't like the rides! Most of us just stayed in the chairs and tables in front of space mountain. Hehe. What a day that was! Haha! Imagine, sleeping in an amusement park. Hehe. The next I'll go there, I'll make sure I'll be with friends, then maybe I'd enjoy it.


Back in Manila. Back to reality. Ugh.


It's Sea Games week! I wanna watch Coach Ramil compete! I'll drag Justin to watch with me, hehe! It's a good thing that guy doesn't do anything. Hehe! But yeh, sea games na! I've been waiting for it coz I wanna see them athletes compete. =D


My parents are mad at me again. Grabe. Hindi pa kami ok from before and now we're not really in speaking terms again. My mom is mad at me because.. well, she just is. I don't know what I did this time. But I guess I pissed her off in HK pa. Now, we're giving each other attitudes. Isn't our relationship the coolest? Sense the sarcasm, dude. My dad is mad at me because my celphone bill exceeded its monthly limit again. It exceeded a few thousands again because of my excessive phone calls. And this is my second warning. He told me that if my bill next month is still empathically high, he will have my line cut. He said that a lot of times already but I think he meant it this time. I don't know. I'm not sure. But I don't know what to do. I mean, I don't reply that much to text messages because I either forget to reply or I don't know what to reply. With calls, well.. it's so much easier calling than texting, yeh? Ha, ewan! I gotta trim down my usage!


The world is oh so twisted. It just is. Oh yeh, I've stopped asking why about something. Actually, it's more of not wanting to ask why anymore. Besides, I wouldn't know why unless I asked. And I don't wanna shock people by doing so. And I don't want to ask. No Way. It's just weird knowing before that something like that will never happen because it was impossible. But now, everything is like a match made in heaven or something to that effect. Then again, that was before and nothing is impossible.


Hay. Forget that paragraph above. I don't think no one knows what I'm talkin about since none of my friends are involved in that WHY question. Hehe. I've mentioned it to Sab and Pat A, though. Pat even had these why questions in the car about certain people. Hehe. Wala. See what thesis can do to you? Bad thesis, bad. Just playing!


"Kung pareho tayong ma-pride, maybe hindi nga tlaga tayo bagay."
- Sab


If it hits you, then maybe it's for you.. straight up.

posted at 3:12 am
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Wednesday, November 10, 2005__________
current mood » feeling better
current spin » Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu


I feel better now. Really really better. There are people who can really get you without too much persuasion. Pfft. I'm not sure if it's good or bad. [sigh]


I'm done with my intake interview report. I hope I did it right. I still have to answer the psychodynamic tests. Err. So many things to do. So little time.


We have a meeting with our mentor tomorrow. We don't have anything to show her. We don't have chapter one. And chapter two needs to be edited so bad! We have less than two weeks until it's due date! Whaaa!! Pano to?!?!?!


I really need a new laptop. I don't want to have my laptop repaired. I just want to sell it and just buy a new one. Or a new desktop. Ewan basta ganon.


I feel better. I'm happy compared yesterday. But there still a lot of things lacking. I'm still bruised inside.


What's wrong with me is that I always ask WHY. And according to Who Stole My Magic? , you shouldn't bother asking why. It's a nice book. But fuck it. I wanna ask why. WHY HER?

posted at 11:06 pm
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005__________
current mood » weirded out
current spin » Usher - Can U Help Me?


"When we know things are not meant for us, learn to let go. It doesn't mean we're weak. But we're just showing how strong we are to fight the urge of wanting something we're not supposed to have."
- forwarded message from Kevin


I survived October 23rd! Yay to me! I don't like October 23 for a very personal reason. So, I'm glad I survived it. I actually forgot that last Sunday was October 23 because my mind was too preoccupied from choosing what laptop I should get.


Speaking of laptops, I was supposed to buy a new one last weekend. I was really close to getting a new one. My dad already considered the thought. Then he asked my mom what she thinks about the laptop. Of course, being the kontrabida that she is, she said that I shouldn't get a new laptop. Argh!


No, not baby!! Haha!!


We came up with a new topic for our thesis. Hopefully, this will push through. We only have less than a month to work on it. But yeh, our topic is hot. I can relate daw according to Sab and Pat A. Haha!


I love fencing. I do. Even though I get several bruises on my legs and arms every training, I still love fencing. Even though my legs are getting bigger because of the leg and footworks, I still love fencing. Even though the mask stinks, I still love fencing. Even though I kinda had a certain issue with one of my team mates, I still love fencing. Even though I don't see a lot of improvement on how I play epee, I still love fencing. I do!! Wala lang. Just a random thought.


From now on, i shall call myself the green fencer.
*slaps my forehead real hard!*


But of course, my loyalty is still in gymnastics. =)


It's hard when you let your feelings get in the way when you know firsthand that you shouldn't. I'm so pissed about something. And even though I know what to do about it, I'm still not doing anything about it. Because I will get hurt either way. And that sucks coz I never thought that I will get hurt. Why? Why do you have to be like this and that? And not this and that?


Sad.
Confused.
Hurt.


My mind is telling me that I should ditch the idea. The heart is telling me otherwise. Mother bitch.


I wanna go stargazing. Tagaytay will do. But I wanna go alone. I wanna hear mass. But I don't want to go alone.


Time flies so fast. My bro's wedding is fast approaching. Less one one month, me dear. I have less than a month to go on a diet! But I don't know how! Oh no! This is really gon be a big problem. South beach diet na ulit ito!

posted at 5:27 pm
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Friday, October 21, 2005__________
current mood » blah.
current spin » Gyskard - Pink Life


I hate this week! Hell week in terms of problems. Yes, tell me about it.


*insert sarcasm here* bitch.


Wasn't able to update this site for more than one month because I didn't have FTP. So, I blogged on lj for the meantime.


I'm using Filezilla now. Thanks, brother dear!

posted at 7:33 pm
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Sunday, September 18, 2005__________
/ current mood » happy
current spin » Kaskade - Safe


I should have been number 13 in that counselling thingy for CLINPSY. Shucks. Why did I even think of picking out another number?!?!?! Grrrr..... Gwapo na nga, naging bato pa! Sayang talga!


I haven't been updating much. My bad. My laptop is broken but it's not. LoOong story. My brother will reformat it tomorrow. Hopefully, it will work fine. *crosses fingers*


My brother just got one year older yesterday. Time flies.


I'm happy. Can you believe it? Wow. Well, that hapiness scale in CLINPSY says I am. Hmm, so maybe I am happy. I won't think about it too much. I'm jinxing my hapiness. Haha. Baduy ko talga.


To you: you're awesome. But I'm more awesome. Haha! Just kidding! If you don't get it, then you're an S.K.


I'm using WS_FTP Professional 2006. Astigin, pare!


My head hurts. I woke up refreshed. I have bruises everywhere. I don't remember much. Big Fish. Hed Kandi. You're the best bet let alone the worst one.

posted at 8:49 pm
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Thursday, September 01, 2005__________
current mood » frustrated
current spin » Meja - I'm Missing You


My do or die thing in ABPSYCH is done. I passed. =D
I failed one major class though. What a bummer. I failed one subject when I'm only two terms away from graduation. First subject that I failed. Biatch. My grades are very frustrating, too. And when I say frustrating, it really is frustrating. Another biatch. And I have you to blame. Argh.


It's over. Me and Carlo. Very much so.


Here I come to face the world once again as being single. Yes!


Hey, Pat is happy. I'm very happy for him. Finally. =D


Will someone make me smile more? Let's wait and see. I'm in a happy disposition as of the moment even though I flunked one major class. No biggie. Haha. Or maybe it still hasn't sunk in. Hmm.


It's already September! Geebus. Fencing training later.


Hannah's 19th birthday party in Ponti this Friday. Be there. I can already see what will happen that night. Hopefully no bad vibes. I haven't gone out on a gimmick for ages! Does Hannah's party count? Coz it's a party. Oh well. I pray hard that I won't get wasted. And I plan to sell my iPod 20gb.

posted at 1:00 am
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Monday, August 15, 2005__________
current mood » tired
current spin » All Saints - Pure Shores


My celphone is broken. My laptop is broken. I have shitloads to do. Now, tell me about it. Really, please do.


A lot of crap has been happening lately. I can only take so much. One more thing and I will explode. Baduy.


And you still don't know how it feels like waking up afraid you're going to live. I sure as hell do.

posted at 12:39 am
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you are my twisted sunshine.